I wonder...

...if you already have received my message. I felt it on Friday that you did. I thought I would write here more frequently... but my new duties at work kill me and then when I get home my little devils kill me again and again and around midnight or earlier I feel so sleepy that I just go to bed...
I started imagine "what if" and how great it would be... ech...
I can't wait the message from you. Then I will know everything is fine. I miss you so much but in some way I got used to this situation and try to be patient as much as possible. But there are days when I feel so upset, so sad and lonely. I remember when you told me one day that I am really cruel and you have to at leat once make me really upset. You don't need to anymore. Whole this situation has already did it instead of you... I'm just worried - it's been a month since we last time talked, you could forget about me...
LOVE U :************************************************************************

Today...

...I called J.Å. :) or actually he called me... that's a longer story.
I was wondering why you gave me his name and phone number and instructed me later not to contact him. Ofkors I started thinking that there is some hidden message in this instruction. If I have any chance to contact you in some way, I will use it. So I did. He told me some really good news that there is a chance for something positive and he will do everything he could to save you :)
Hope you are fine there and will smile when hear the message from me :* I love you darling and miss you!!!

Exhausted...

...that's how I feel. I visited today swedish embassy in KRK = IKJEA :D haha, bought the most often sold cars in Sweden and Marabou Mjölkchoklad ofkors too :)
Then I was trying to get some trousers but I couldn't find the perfect ones...
Then I got known that ex didn't feed kids at all while they spent whole day together... and finally I got known that he was spending this day alsowith some new bitch. So no more kids to ex while she is with him... And I don't care he has somebody but I don't allow him to show her to kids.
Anyway now I even more miss you, darling... Visiting IKEA is only the trial to feel a little bit of Sweden's atmospere... and you :*) Oh I really can't wait the first message from you. Puss puss

Everything...

...reminds me of you... Planes in the sky make me want to fly to you. I close my eyes and want to turn back the time and keep it hold for December flight to STHLM :)I wish we stayed in RB forever watching Borat. Why are there so many f*****g planes now in the sky?

Just...

...Can't wait the first message from you. I know it takes time until all is done but it sucks living uncounscious... MISS YOU... Can't wait to see you again. I've never known I'd ever wait to go to such place hahaha :)

The longer...

...you are there, the more I miss you. The more I miss you, the stronger my feeling of love for you is...
Every night I wonder how your day looks like, how do you feel, how the mission is going on, when do I get any news from you, if you still want me, do you feel lonely there, when we see each other again... You know - like million questions on my mind... I just really can't wait the first message from you LOVE YOU DARLING!

So another...

...Friday behind us...your third Friday on the mission, almost 3 weeks without hearing your voice on my phone :( and almost 8th months since we talked for the very first time on CB :D I want you to know that all these things that actually are happening now and the real reason why you went on your mission DON'T change anything at least on my side :) I'll be always love YOU <3